are inexplicable and profoundly frustrating our faith in goodwill. What is the
essence of personal meaning in a world where human relations are becoming increasingly
fragile? What is the meaning of this world when only one in a thousand will
succeed in his lifestyle? And what of the majority others left stranded by
forces that apparently none can escape from? What is the meaning of this world
where millions upon millions are forced to work in underpaid tiring jobs? While
the extravagances of wealth are accepted, tolerated, applauded and esteemed,
where does that leave the rest of humanity?
The twists of hypocrisy numb and
stagger, while our changing moods react to this world of ours. We watch
pontificating and condescending authorities speak of facts and visions bearing
little relevance that are in any way significant to the average soul.
We listen to the oft-repeated
clichés people employ as language has become script for so many a pre-recorded
programme with little room given for free thought. Conversations of blandness,
set-piece questions and answers and people ‘exchange’ ideas and thoughts on set
The turbulence of life are
numerous and dense. The sad quality of human nature renders much of our need
for meaning and fulfilment a useless quest. The chaotic nature of the human
mind renders our hopes and desires resting on fragile ground. For dependence on
humans to satisfy our needs is a risky adventure, precisely because most humans
are themselves lost with no identities and suffering a severe sense of one’s
In truth, we are alone. Alone as
any planet, for though you may be part of a constellation of ‘friends’ and
‘family’, and though you may be part of a grand interconnected web of interests
and lifestyles and motives, you are still, in essence, alone as any revolving
In this vast universe where the
uncertainty principle dominates, you exist in isolation with no adequate means
of knowing your security of your journey’s path.
This truth, in turn, grinds down
upon your hearts as we walk our daily lives here there. The heavy truth is that
we are all alone and that the caring ones are fast decreasing in numbers. Our
world is being divided between the cruel ones and the frightened ones, whilst
the brave, heroic ones are dying out, and an increasingly lame society and an
increasingly brainless culture, renders it more and more difficult to continue
enacting out that heroic role.
The Age of Quantum is the Age
The destruction of the self due
to its gradual erosion and fragmentation. United personalities are being hacked
away by the effects of a profoundly idiotic ‘culture’. These poisonous gazes
that culture spits out creates a decoherent, paralyzed sense of meaning to our
It is far more comfortable to
exist numbly rather than to exist with a thinking mind, because the latter
frightens us, given the ugly truths of our reality. For to reflect upon one’s
condition is to divulge the secrets of who we are all trying to repress and
hide. The hidden secrets of our hearts that would awaken our eyes to the sordid
spectacle of human nature afloat everywhere are not so easily to bear, even
though the hidden secrets of our hearts we all can know of - if we desired to
For in truth, the real vision of
human nature is far too exceedingly ugly to behold!
Yet your persevering repression
breeds chaos and greater fragility. Repression creates rage and an increasing sense
of being lost in one’s own life. All creatures, great and small, the rich and
famous, the hungry ones and the beggars, the middle class workers and the
destitute unemployed ones all share one common grief: the sense of a lack of
personal fulfilment for one’s vital existential needs.
So what is this life teaching us?
What is this life conveying to our impressions? As the days pass by, the years
and experiences being remembered, what calculations do you create and what
results do you deduce therefrom?
The different sceneries you
witness, the deep conversations you have had and the experiences you have been
through, what essences do you infer therefrom? For in the final analysis, do we
not all have a personal ideology for fine tuning our attitudes and lives in a
positive and fulfilling direction?
And what of those afflicted with
a terminal illness? What greater paradox can there be in life? How can we
equate the authoritative, pontificating steadfast words of some, when for some
others extinction is a near certainty and thus making their brief lives so
Paradoxes of life!
The soldier killed at the dawn of
war and the soldier killed in the final hour of the war. The prisoner of war
who is summarily chained to an enforced loneliness and a casual sentence of
frightful solitude and brutality for an unspecified time. What explanations do
we offer ourselves when we try to understand the words and meanings of the
puzzles of life?
The delicate nature of all souls
in their routine lives saddens us. The quick discovery that life’s offerings
are bland and predictable.
The architecture of loneliness;
the architecture of gloom; the architecture of mass-produced, cheap, drab
houses surround our bewildered visions: these are our home towns; these are our
cities – this is where our solitude comes from. The extremely ugly row of
houses, the high-rise gray buildings, the dull corner shop, the bleak streets
are common sceneries we all witness and experience hourly. This, then, is the
architecture in which we are to live our entire lives?
Well, I say there can be no
proper, decent and healthy living in these repugnant circumstances. We can only
repress our emerging grief and our daily dying and our hourly saddened sighs –
if we choose to tune to ourselves. The repeated ugliness of the towns and
cities destroys joy, creativity and our remaining hopes.
The morally empty lives we live.
The fundamentally directionless lives we live. This is indeed destitution for
rich and poor alike, for this lifestyle we are living through creates a
crassness within our minds.
This is the ongoing decline of
‘culture’ that I am speaking of, and this is the exact same decline that every
ancient civilisation once underwent, leading to their ultimate extinction.
This is our age of the decline
and the deadness of our souls.
And as we surrender our sense of
the self and joy to the opium, mass produced high-tech rubbish, nonsensical
‘culture’, so too do we lose our own minds.
The murder of Man is now abstract
and no longer necessarily bloody: for it doesn’t really need to be bloody at
The destruction of the human race
can and is being carried out far more efficiently by the greatest propaganda
machine that has ever been created: the junk mass media culture of
entertainment, hype, stupidities, fast services, bumper sticker intelligence,
plasticity of tears and the deliberate ignoring of our noble feelings and